This is one of those days......

Lack of sleep? Worry about something? Too many thoughts running in my mind? Celestial formation not in tune? Pre-menstrual syndrome?

This is one of those days when a lot of things doesn't seem right. My head is hurting, a migraine brewing, my eyes heavy, my mood - simply blah. Just finished a cup of milo while chatting to a colleague - which should've helped but not, want to grab a cup of capuccino but think about what that would do to my stomach.

I have my headphone blasting Gwen Stefani - Hollaback girl. Just anything to keep my spirit floating. But a crash is looming. Several laps in a pool would do a lot of good, I believe, but when? How? Where? Not bound to office with lots of things to finish up before tomorrow's holiday like this. Already thought of going home with works to do in the weekend. Not fun. Definitely not.

Been wanting to take my eldest to see Ice Age2 in the cinema. Come to think of it, she has never been to a cinema before. And been wanting to have my hair a new hair cut. Been wanting to go to spa and have a full body massage - with incense burning, dimmed light, soft music of water running. HAH! Been wanting to have glorius sex with my hubby without interruption and total abandon. Yeah... right.

I can go on and on and on and on with this and kill myself in the process.

STOP!

It's time to live, smile and (pretend to) be happy. NO MATTER WHAT.

Well, thanks, blog.

Jealousy - love or insecurity?

I just read this sentence moments ago: jealousy does not show how much we love someone but rather how insecure we are.

Is it?

Timed farewell

My aunt has cancer, and she is in the losing battle against it. For at least a month now, she has been lying in bed with oxygen mask and cathether. She no longer moves around and bed-ridden. Truth be told, her days are numbered.

I told her condition to my boss (ex-boss, that is), who is a doctor and has lost his father to cancer. He said that aren't we all gonna end someday? In a sense, people who is terminally ill, and whose end seems to be near, are lucky, he said. Their loved ones are prepared for their departure, and are given the chance to "finish up", to mend hard feelings, to apologize for past's wrong-doings, and plan for what's next, and so on. And the cycle of shock, anger, denial and acceptance / resignation can be fully experienced, in a relatively proper timing. Those who lost people they love without notice can be having far more harder time.

We will have our ends, someday. Perhaps it would be wise to not hurt anybody else's heart so that when death meets us without notice, those we leave behind would not have to mend broken things on our behalf.

If you love someone, say it, now. If you're sorry about something, say it, now. If you want to do something in your live, do it, now.

Today is a present. A gift. Don't throw it away.